I am a vase full of pain. Every crack leaks pain out over those who are closest to me. I want to destroy the vase and end the pain. But it would spill out over everyone I love.
My sweet wife carries scars that are not hers. When the monster of mental illness grows strong within me, all too often Kathryn becomes its target. When I can barely keep myself alive, the monster feeds on her to destroy us both. And still, she is here. Firmly by my side as the monster rages … Continue reading Dancing with the Monster
Having Borderline Personality Disorder sucks a lot. The struggle and pain of it all is so intense sometimes. But I'm also discovering the gifts of highly sensitive emotional people. We are naturally empathetic and compassionate We are able to have deep and authentic relationships Our joy is contagious and can be found in the simplest … Continue reading Emotional Gifts
World Down Syndrome Day 2017 passed on March 21st. This day of celebration and raising awareness is organized by Down Syndrome International to give voice to individuals who aren’t often heard in the mainstream. Although there has been increasing advocacy in Canada for education, opportunities and jobs for people with Down Syndrome, there is still … Continue reading Language Beyond Words
I don't usually do much for Lent other than think about what I should/could/would do. But this year there's something stirring deep down. A need for silence. My brain works in a furious rush sometimes, and most of my life is filled with incredible life-giving moments, but sometimes the energy of those moments keeps me … Continue reading Silence
I tossed her collar on the seat next to me. The tags clinked together, and for the briefest moment, the part of me deeper than logic believed she was there. How many car rides have we taken together? My Pavlovian response to the sound of the tags wanted to believe this ride was the same. … Continue reading Sasha
I feel mixed about #BellLetsTalk today. Is it a start? Yes. Is it enough? Hardly. We need a lot more than just talk. We need practical ways to support one another through times of crisis. We need to teach people emotional coping skills (preferably as children). We need actual answers to why our brains sometimes … Continue reading Let’s Talk
Often I have moments when something will cause me to remember a choice or action I've made in the past that I feel embarrassed about or regret. Sometimes these things just pop into my head without any apparent reason. And I often start to feel really bad, embarrassed, worthless, stupid. I imagine that everyone who … Continue reading Shame vs. Regret
If You Feel Too Much Jamie Tworkowski, founder of TWLOHA If you feel too much, there’s still a place for you here. If you feel too much, don’t go. If this world is too painful, stop and rest. It’s okay to stop and rest. If you need a break, it’s okay to say you need … Continue reading If You Feel Too Much
I held an atlas in my lap ran my fingers across the whole world and whispered where does it hurt? It answered everywhere everywhere everywhere. - Warsan Shire, from "What They Did Yesterday Afternoon"