My heart bleeds with you when your pain demands to be felt. And I know yours bleeds for me too. Your breath surrounds me with the air that keeps me alive. And I will keep breathing life over you.
The Bear, Part 1 Death consumes me. I am fighting a bear that is 1000x stronger, 1000x more vicious than me. They tell me to be brave, to have hope, to take one moment at a time. I believe the voices that say I am stronger than him. I tell the bear and he laughs … Continue reading The Bear
Stigma often places the blame of mental illness on the shoulders of those who struggle. Resources are scarce and the system is overwhelmed. We are expected to fight our way to wellness in a society that breeds anxiety and despair. Those of us who are most sensitive are like canaries in the coalmines, but instead … Continue reading Canaries
I am a vase full of pain. Every crack leaks pain out over those who are closest to me. I want to destroy the vase and end the pain. But it would spill out over everyone I love.
My sweet wife carries scars that are not hers. When the monster of mental illness grows strong within me, all too often Kathryn becomes its target. When I can barely keep myself alive, the monster feeds on her to destroy us both. And still, she is here. Firmly by my side as the monster rages … Continue reading Dancing with the Monster